Dear Lord

A Poem

By Chosen Vessel

Texas

D
ear Lord, please help me understand

how You see me and how I make You feel,

because the devil often has my thoughts in his hand

and I’m unable to comprehend that Your love for me is real.

I think to myself, how would I feel?

How would I feel if my parents were too busy to take care of me?

How would I feel if my wife was tempted and cheated on me?

How would I feel if my son was embarassed to call me father in front of his friends?

How would I feel if my family ignored me no matter how many messages I send?

How would I feel if my son daily disobeyed what I ask him to do?

How would I feel if he tells me dad, I’m grown up, I don’t need you?

Lord, no human heart can endure this much betrayal and pain

Any person would advise me to leave these hurtful people alone or I’ll go insane.

Well Lord, that’s exactly what I do to you, so tell me, how do You feel?

Why do You still try?

Every person on earth would tell You to just give up on me and let me die.

Every person on earth would look at me as a lost cause and sigh

What do You see when you look at my face?

Lord if I were You, I’d at look at me with disgrace.

But Lord thank You that You don’t think like me,

Thank You that in Your eyes there’s more to me that I even see

Thank You that Your heart is bigger than mine.

Thank You that Your love is a different kind of love, Your love is divine.

Lord I know I’m far from it and it’ll take a while

But with Your help, when You look at me, I hope You smile